Monday, August 03, 2009

Where am I going?

The pace of my life upsets me! Days repeating themselves all over with no marked differences, routines that are dreary and dragging with seemingly no purpose and all that time that gets away quicker than it ought to!

What has life come to be? Monotonous, mechanical, distasteful large shades of gray and monosyllabic instances that, it seems, are intended to leave me to to wear out in a fate unknown and unfathomable. There is a certain missing connect though all is well, which is perhaps as a result of the inhuman pace of events that have been occurring, taxing the mind to concur to everything that it comes across and assimilate happenings, a task which seems to be more of a cruel exploitation than continuance of a regular schedule!

Part of me, rather my whole self, wants to break free and head to the mountains, liberated from the evil clutches of technology and information, both of which have saturated my poor self and committed it to irreparable ruin. I want to go away, not once ever to think of returning, to what the mass calls mainstream! I wish to feel traces of comforting warmth in the cold yet scintillating expanses of large sky hugging lush green blue like mountains, walk along the broken bubbling creeks, let the slow paced afternoon brush of air swathe my face and listen intently to what the ravens are talking to themselves about the wilderness!

I want to be a child, again, and live life on my own terms......

Am I a rebel, or person who loves to take cognizance of the splendor of life and emphasize on living well rather than be part of an excruciatingly maddening rat race?

Honestly, I believe its a lot of both!

43 comments:

  1. reminds me of d song by atif aslam

    "hum kis gali jaa rahe hain
    apna koi thikana nahi"

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  2. I do not know where I am headed...then how do I know where you are, Rak! :)

    hey kidding, But looking at it there's a lot of me in you, and you in me...or may be just that I am through the same feeling as of now,

    whatever, do not kill the child in you Rak...the whole fun of life will be gone,....let me tell you, life is a rat race..if you seperate out and watch, you won't feel like joining in again....and that lull can be even killing....at the end of each day, reorient yourself..thats the best one can do...

    know your purpose and reason well, and know you are mortal and could be gone in a second...

    extend a smile to the other....it all will fall in place...else you will always feel fallen in a rut...shake up and Move on!

    if in a day I have been the cause of a smile in one face...its more than enough at the end of it!

    wishes,
    devika

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  3. Rakesh...life today seems to have lost it's depth. It has acquired so much speed that one finds it difficult to cope up with. I am reminded of a poem I studied in school(long back)....I am able to recollect only one line..'there is no time to stand and stare'..think it is by Wordsworth. Everyone is so busy out here that we are gasping for time. The available time has to be scheduled in such a way that we are able to find a slot for everything we would like to do and thereby ending up doing nothing completely...result..dissatisfaction,frustration and so on. I remember my childhood days when everything was fun.We had time for our family, friends and for ourselves. Today we don't have time even for us. The motto seems to be-"Keep Running'-but, as you asked, where to and till where? To wind up, it seems to be an irony that as a child one always wants to be an adult and as one grows into an adult he wants to go back to childhood (does it have something to do with the saying-,the other side appears greener').... To escape from the maddening schedule take a break...free your mind from everything and RELAX.

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  4. Rakesh - when are you going to the mountains? We will celebrate your absence!

    On a serious note, schedule your breaks, vacations etc on priority and mingle it with work schedules!

    Srini

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  5. take a break, man..
    yes, the monotone can become unbearable..
    have a break, have a kitkat :)

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  6. Dude,
    "I want to be a child, again, and live life on my own terms..."

    We all want to become as carefree as a child and guess what we can become like that... All we need to do is to seek a reason for happiness

    http://arnavspeaks.blogspot.com/2008/11/reason-to-smile-transition-needed.html


    Keep Writing and Smile :)

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  7. Dude,
    "I want to be a child, again, and live life on my own terms..."

    We all want to become as carefree as a child and guess what we can become like that... All we need to do is to seek a reason for happiness

    http://arnavspeaks.blogspot.com/2008/11/reason-to-smile-transition-needed.html


    Keep Writing and Smile :)

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  8. I love this post alot Rakesh...u know why? cos u spoke for me too! Every word u said here was abt me too..abt my life. WOW!


    ** Days repeating themselves all over with no marked differences, routines that are dreary and dragging with seemingly no purpose and all that time that gets away quicker than it ought to!

    I so know what u mean. I feel a deep sense of meaninglessness in all of this. Part of me wants to get out of here, part of me wants to stay. I really dunno WTH Im doing :(


    Some day, I might disappear w.o. a trace...and meditate in the woods. Im not kidding!

    Keshi.

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  9. Abt being a child again..it's too late now Rakesh. We can never go back in time cos our brains hv grown and certain spots of innocence hv been replaced with clutter...

    but we can purify ourselves...our hearts and souls..if we concentrate on the neutral...it's hard but achievable.

    Keshi.

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  10. the last lines has something.. in it..
    must tell u....seriously i sometime not sometime nwadays i feel almost everytime i wanted to be like a child bcz wen i see people around me.. i feel so exhausted n frustrated..
    people r killing others for their own self...
    in our relations too....
    n i wud like to say a lot but i think it will be two much for a new one to comment on ur blog..
    first time here.. n i m loving it..

    May god bless u...
    tk cr n keep writing..
    n yes thanks for the comment on my blog..

    Pallav

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  11. Its funny how we try to make sure where we are headed but its always in the end do we come to know how far we made it.

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  12. @ I want to be a child, again, and live life ....exactly ,i used think like this always..
    in this world everyone is racing aimlessly :( .
    it is a coincidence that ,this post truly reflects my thoughts.
    anyways what to do..to survive , we have to sail along with the tide

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  13. It sounds like homesick! Take a brake, but it never happens in time we need. I guess everyone go through this mood, and change is the way we could restore our energy. take care bro.

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  14. They say vacation helps ! But it doesnt. It screws us even more. I took a vacation a couple of months back to rejuvenate myself. I did come back all refreshed but now its like I wanna be on vacation forever !

    We are travelling in the same cruise, and the only thing is we are on different floors :D :D Life is getting so damn monotonous these days !!!

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  15. Seems this has become an inevitable questions to most of us off late....

    When i think of old carefree days, they all seems wonder!

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  16. Now-a-days everyone goes through this at some point in his/her life...

    Possible take a break to Ooty Rakesh....I think She will take care of you :-)

    wishes & prayers!

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  17. I hear you! I always dreamed that I'd find a chota-mota job somewhere on the hills and live on my own. I am honestly going to give it a try someday..
    However I've just returned from a trip to the hills.. though some areas were crowded with the city crowd wanting to escape like me.. there were enough corners to sit alone and brood.. take some time off.. its recuperating.. :)

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  18. time to realign priorities :)
    life is good. just step out of the rat race otherwise you would have made plenty of money but wont have time to spend it!

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  19. completely concur with this post although I have been in this shit for an year..it's still shit :)

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  20. Mayank

    Now that U've said it, I too think so ;)

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  21. Devika Chechi

    In truth, none of us knows where we are headed, isn't that so?
    Life is particularly monotonous owing to the sickening rat race - I read somewhere that there is only one winner in the rat race, the rat!

    Perhaps, that's the way its meant to be before one realizes the purpose of life and realigns priorities and gets out the clutter!

    Thanks for your comments!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  22. Old Monk

    Yes, the quality of life today has drstically eroded in comparison to what it used to be before and that is a cause of concern!

    Priorities and relationships too have changed over the period of time and have become more focused towards materialistic things than the elementary joys that used to be so much a part of our lives......

    I wonder how, why, when, what and so much more..........

    Thanks for your comments, as always!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  23. Srini

    Welcome to my space! Good to see you here! Isn't enduring you so much a pressure itself that I need to take a break? ;) Lol! That was certainly pun intended!

    Points taken, my friend........ actionables.....U know better, don't you!!! So, So, So???? ;))

    Thanks for your comments!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  24. Mohsin

    Yeah, I do need to take a good long break, but then after the break, I so much don't wanna come back!

    ;)

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  25. Arnav

    Quite true budd.....we need to seek a reason for being happy and constantly at that!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  26. Keshi

    I'm glad you could relate to this post!

    Me too, I so much wanna disappear from this web that I'm entangled in........wonder when that happens!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  27. Pallav

    Thanks so much for the wishes, very thoughtful indeed!

    Yes, life is frustrating indeed, if one looks around and also within......something that wasn't the case, not a long time ago!

    Hopefully, I make the better of it and soon!

    Thanks once again, and for the visit too!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  28. Survivor

    Very well said...... the pace of life is unmeasurable and its depth unfathomable indeed!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  29. Anish

    Yes, the mad race is what is sickening...... and its pace even more!

    I'm glad you could relate.

    Thanks for visiting and commenting too!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  30. Jeevan

    I'm very home sick now......something that usually does not happen!
    But U know, I long for the quiet life now with large pauses and relaxation.........!

    Thanks Jeevan, appreciate ur comments!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  31. Vimmuuu

    Yeah U bet, after a vacation, I certainly dont wanna get back!!!

    Dont know what to do abt it!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  32. Numerounity

    The good old days of cheer......I miss them!

    What have we made of life?? I wonder!

    Thanks for visiting and leaving me your comments!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  33. Mani

    Thanks for the good advise and the warm wishes.....Ooty perhaps will cure me! I need to pack off for a while!

    Thanks also for visiting and commenting!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  34. Aria

    How so true of me in thought that U've expressed in words here! I so wish....... but U know what they say about wishes......!

    Hopefully........!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  35. Magiceye

    Indeed Sir! A decision I need to take, and soon!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  36. Rahul

    It seems shit happens......all the time! Isn't it?

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  37. ha! now that we know...let me tell you....I am a rat who finds myself always on the banks....urging others to run and then enjoying the rat race! :)

    If I didn't get to see the rat race..I used to feel sick, truly :)

    winning and losing has never been my perspective about life...GOD alone wins and He is no rat :)

    Now it all seems slowing down here and so I find myself focusing on rats outside the soapbox....Classes have begun and I am busy with my students :)

    There are more, much more meaningful ways to fill your life...if you look around,

    These void feelings are good, so you relook at your life time and again -and a life calls for it -- no?

    wishes,
    devika

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  38. Acha Rak, don't take it otherwise when I say enjoying the rat race.....

    whatever one may say...looking back, a fully active and spirited blogville, was real fun until some months ago, despite all its intricate discords,

    now seem a dream, far off

    wishes,
    devika

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  39. Devika Chechi

    It is interesting to watch the rat race...... something like what Narayana Guru once said, like the observer who should watch his mind and self!

    Watching, in this case, the rat race, will, I'm sure give us a perspective or rather help solidify it to not take part in it!

    And, as you have said, the sooner one makes amends in ones life.....the better it is!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  40. Well said Rak, by observing the world around you know who and what you are...

    Because you are no different from the other...Tatwam Asi....& yet a detachment is fun! :)

    and amends -- a personal choice....can't say what is better and what is not...time alone proves :)

    devika

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  41. Devika Chechi

    Yes, perhaps reason enough for wise men to repeatedly focus on silence and observation!

    "Because you are no different from the other...Tatwam Asi....& yet a detachment is fun! :)"

    Indeed, very well said, I completely agree!

    Thanks once again!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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  42. BC

    Thanks very much for your visit and comments!

    Appreciate it!

    Cheers

    Rakesh

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