Being Me?

Have you ever felt in contravention to your inner-self? For the sake of resolving a conflict which you felt should have happened the way your conscious thought of rather than the way your mind wanted?

Life is not always black and white, there are many shades of gray in between. Some we see, some others we do not know they exist, let alone not being able to see!

Contradictions exist in every stage of life! They are a natural occurrence! It is important to recognize them rather than fight out their existence!

All roads lead forward, but our actions often do not! The result is a great deal of sorrow, disappointment, regret and pain, and a mix of all of them as if each of them were not potent enough already! Why? Isn't it only one life here?

Gaining terra firma is an art, aided with astute judgment, wisdom and patience! Who's gonna come around, when you break?

What is apparent is not usually recognized! The truth is out there, waiting to be known, felt and experienced, but the truth is a dangerous thing, for it is bitter, painful and strange! You just can't go on....but you have to!

If I fall along the way, pick me up and dust me off, and if I get too tired to make it, be my breath so I can walk
- Bent, Matchbox 20, April 18, 2000

I'm scared of loss! I'm anxious of the future! I'm worried of time slipping by! I'll be pained to envision the bygones! Will I be broken again? Will this end? I don't want it to! Is this Being Me? Can I get put back together? But I started out clean! And, what is that the English say about the end? A good beginning makes a good ending?

Footnotes:

These pictures were taken, using a mobile phone camera, during my trip to the Jim Corbett National Park, Uttarakhand during the winter of 2005! An account of this memorable trip is here!